puzzled

I've been always thinking what's wrong with me. Every time I fall for someone, things just get screwed up. Is this what I deserve? I just hate myself. I've done everything I can to make my life better. Ended up, I didn't manage to change anything AT ALL. This is my fucking life. I don't like the people around me. So do the people around me, they don't like me. I'm tired of living a life like this. How I wish that someone could just pick me out from this world and put me elsewhere. I don't know what to do and where to go. I'm nobody. Even if I distinguish from this place, no one would ever notice. Pathetic but this is me.

utar-rians

Sometimes i'm wondering whether did i made the right choice coming to utar. Not that i don't like this place, but the people around me. They just pissed me off. What sort of thinking they are still having? This is the modern age. Do you expect people to wear clothes like the do in the olden days? Cover every inch of your body that you can cover and that's beauty? That's conservative. I don't know the people came out from the jungle or what. Thinks like a caveman and act like one. Hey, i just can't stand it. Stop pissing me off and get out of my way.

random

If you ask me, how's life in kampar? I would definately say it's boring shyte. I also don't understand why i've chosen here. Recalling back, i think the reason is someone said it's nearer to ipoh and you can come and find me. Excuse me, how often is it so? I would say that i've made the wrong choice coming here. Why am i so damn moody everyday? I think i'm just lying to myself that you still love me the same. I can't stand that myself is keep telling me this but the fact is that you're leaving me. You're walking out from my life bit by bit. You're just afraid that i can't accept this "devastating" fact that you don't want me anymore. I understand that there's nothing last forever. Love is just something i hunger for since i'm small. I always wanted to have love, but it seems impossible. You will never understand what i've been through. Everytime i own something, it'll soon be someone else's. This is life this is me.