random post

once in a while.. I'll feel lost inside.. I felt like everything just come and go.. There's nothing that can last forever.. Actions are like unspoken words.. There's always a clue to everything that may be happening.. At least i think i can understand those clues.. or maybe i misinterpret them.. I'm not sure of it.. Every time i think that that particular relationship is worth it to put my feelings into them, it'll get screwed up.. Be it friendship or anything else.. I didn't expect anything in return.. But just that I'm tired of being the only one giving in.. Giving in all that i can.. but what i get is jsut a cold shoulder.. or maybe worse.. a stab on the back.. Is this what i deserve?